Ok, so this is a question that has been plaguing my mind since I met my Fiancé. My hubby to be has an amazing little one who has completely stolen my heart. He fills a void that I didn’t even know needed to be filled. I guess you could say that he and his daddy complete me.
In the back of my mind I always question whether or not I want to have one of my own. I’m not getting any younger which makes the decision even more burdening as I am going to have to figure it out in the next year. Most of my close friends have kids and I see how hard it can be not to mention how life changing it is. I honestly admire people who can say YES I do want kids or NO I absolutely don’t want kids. There are many pros and cons to having a child and of course for me it’s always the cons that are pointed out and weigh on my mind. Right now I am able to do pretty much anything that I want and I love that about my life but then on the other hand I know that I would also embrace sharing it or giving it up for a little mini me.
I have had this talk with my better half (wait who are we kidding, I’m his better half) numerous times and I know that he is content with the way that our life is right now but that he would hands down have another one. He has been through it and he knows and understands how much work it is, where as I wouldn’t be able to completely understand until it happened. My best friend has told me that you can prepare yourself as much as you want for what you think it’s going to be like but nothing can prepare you for when it actually happens.
I just don’t want to wake up one day and regret never experiencing a child of my own. I am sure that I am not the only one out there that is struggling with this same scenario and wonders do I or don’t I?